End of the Year,

It's soo weird now to think that I have officially had my last day of school. It seems so weird that I'm never going back there everyday for school in my life, it's so mind blowing right now. And I've had this sick feeling in my stomach all day, like my heart has jumped down there and it won't come back up. And I don't like it.

And thinking about all of my school experience, I think of how much has changed in 12 years. People I thought that I would never be friends with in a million years, I'm actually going to miss. And to think how my life was a couple of years ago, I can't help but think that I'm actually kind of glad that I had those experiences. It has made me such a stronger person, and I can recognize when a situation that I'm in isn't right, or the people that I decide to be friends with aren't really my friends. I've had many people come and go through my life, i don't even think that I could count them anymore. People who I thought that I would never lose touch with, who were my best friends at one point are out of the picture, and yet those few others who I've been able to make it through all the drama, and tears, and fights, and I don't even know what, are still my friends to this day, and I hope that that never ends, that we stay friends for many more years to come.

And then there is the situation with a person that I haven't talked to since I was in grade 6, who messages me, out of the blue, and starts kinda talking to me again. It's weird, because we were really close, and then it all kinda went to hell. It makes me think what could happen with all of those people that I lost along the way, and if I'll ever start talking to them again as well. It's just been a really weird couple of months, lol.

And as scared as I am at the prospect of going off to university next year, I'm still kinda excited about. I'm a person that doesn't adjust well with change, but I think after all that I done, especiall during this year, I think I will handle it better than I would have just last year.

This Week

So I'm still sick, with pnuemonia, and I'm tired and I would really like to get better anytime now. Lets see, this week has been kinda weird. I don't know why. I was sitting in social studies today, and I honestly couldn't remember what day it was, it kinda seems like it's gone by in a blur. And next week, I have two doctor's appointments that I have to go to. One for my lovely knee, and at least I can then ask my doctor what the hell is happening with it, cause I haven't been able to go to physio in like a month now, and the second appointment is on wednesday, for my lovely pnuemonia, cause it hasn't gotten any better in the two weeks since I saw my doctor, so now i have to go back so I can get a chest x-ray done, and they can figure out what is wrong with me, so much fun!!!, lol

But, anyway, grad was so much fun, we got a limo and everything, and rode around downtown screaming at people, and just having fun with all of my closest friends, which I loved so much. And I also got accepted to the Faculty of Humanities, so I've decided that I am actually going to go to university this year, something I wasn't going to do because of my knee injury. At least now I feel like I'm actually going to be doing something with my life this year, not just working, and it kinda feels like something is going right in my life for once this year, lol, and I hope it gets better from now on, that would be absolutely lovely.