After Christmas

Christmas was pretty quiet this year. Nothing really big happened, but it was kinda nice to be able to not really have to worry about going anywhere, or having anybody over at the house, just the immediate family. I totally got my netbook. It's soo cute. It's little and small and it weighs like nothing, and I really like it. Except for the fact that the version of Windows 7 that I have is the starter edition, so I can't change my desktop background, which kinda makes me sad, but mom thinks that she could probs get a deal on an upgrade because I'm a student, so we'll see, but it's not a big deal, I'm just glad that I have one now for school. That was pretty much my present there, lol, but I did get the special edition of Harry Potter and the HBP, so I'm happy also, you always have to have the special edition of Harry Potter, it's like an unwritten rule, lol. Anyways, now I'm looking forward to New Years, I'm excited to see what 2010 has in store for me, and I'm just hoping that it will be better in terms of not hurting myself. I'd really like to make it the entire year without having to go to the emergency room, that would be nice.

Just thinking

• So I've been doing alot of thinking lately, and I'm thinking that I need to get back into my routine of doing my physio, cause lately my knee has been hurting more than normal, and it's been swollen, so that's a forsure sign that it needs to be worked out more.
• I'm also thinking that I need to invest more time in myself, do what makes me happy, and not worry about anybody else, well maybe my friends, :) but only cause I love you guys to death, lol,
• I have also, for defs decided that drinking that much, that fast, is never going to happen again. I know I have already said this, but now you people can hold me to my word.
• I just want everybody to know that I'm there for them, and you guys can talk to me about anything. I know things have been rough lately, but I want to make things work, :)
• I'm pretty excited for Amys birthday party, and no, it's not so I can drink, lol, but so then I can hang out with everybody and then go dancing, holla! And maybe have one drink, maybe.
• I'm excited for exams to be done, then I can relax and take it easy, and destress, cause I'm sure that will help things lots, I'm sure that's been a huge problem lately.
• I'm also excited to do my Christmas baking, and putting up my Christmas tree tomorrow, it's my favorite time of the year, even though there's like fifty feet of snow, it still better stick around so we can have a white christmas, that would be nice, please and thank you,

Never Again

So defs had an experience to last me a lifetime, and have decided that I"m never drinking that much again in and hour and a half, NEVER. It is not soo much fun waking up and not remembering what happened the night before, and still be drunk. Then to boot, having the worst headache in the world and having your tummy be like gurgle gurgle. I'm just thank ful that I had my friends and my family to watch over me, because I'm sure as hell that I wouldn't be writing this today if I hadn't, so THANK YOU, :).
Ugh, now I have to deal with all of my studying for exams, and today kinda went out the window, so now I have even less time to read through the fifty thousand pages of texts for these exams, but I have defs learned my lesson, and never again am I doing it.

• Today was kind of a disaster of a day, but it at least did have it's ups
• First of all, I woke up at like 7:30, so I had like 10-15 minutes to get my ass out the door.
• Next thing I finally get my butt out the door at like 7:45, and realize that there is frost all over the windows of my car, and that I need to scrap them, lol, that was fun,
• I finally made it to the train station, at like 8:10, and as I was going up the ramp to the station, noticed some guy in a yellow vest with a notepad who was standing behind my car writing, all these signs lead to a friggen parking ticket, so that was a defs fml moment,
• I made it to school, and surprisingly enough, things went pretty well, better than I thought,
• When I got back to my car, thank God, I only got a warning for parkign there, so I now have to find a new place to park from now on, ugh, but it could have been worse, so that's okay.
• I finally got to have the burger that I've been craving for like a week, yum, sooo good,
• I went for a walk around the dry pond, nice and relaxing, especially from everything that has happened in the past couple of days, it just helped me to release it all
• Another thing that just helped me to release it all was writing a letter. You know how people talk about if you write a letter as if you were going to send it to a person, but you don't? Well that defs helped me get things off my chest, and put things in a clearer perspective, and I realized that I've been getting worked up about things way to much and I'm probably reading way more into this than I should be, and I'm just going to take it slow.
• And Kj Munroe, where are these blogs that you said you were going to write like a week ago, huh, I'm still expecting one you know!!!!!!! lol
• Just want to say that I love my friends, I don't know where I'd be without you guys, <3

The Knee

So I'm defs feeling better about things, and I have an announcement, I THINK MY KNEE IS FINALLLY GETTING CLOSER TO BEING BACK TO NORMAL. LOL, it's defs not hurting as much, and I can actually feel muscles in it again, lol, not just bone and skin and fat, lol. It makes me happy, cause then that means that I can start dancing like I did before. I know I'm still going to have to take it easier than I would have before, but I'm really anxious. Just follow my passion, even if it has to be changed.
I think that the reason it has taken me soo long to finally start getting better is because I think I was feeling sorry for myself. I look back now, and I wasn't doing my pyhsio, and I was sitting around. I know that at first I had a legitimate reason because of my pneumonia, but after that, all of June I never made it once to physio, and never once really did my exercises. Now, even though I haven't actually been to physio in like two months, I'm working on it three times a week, and I've definitely noticed an improvement in everything, and I'm feeling happy, :)

SOOOO Overtired,

• SO I'm sitting here, in my bedroom, after I drank my first full beer, I think, lol, and I'm so overtired, and it's like almost 11, and I'm listening to Metric's new song, and thinking I'm really loving it, not so obsessed with the Backstreet Boys, even though I just listened to their new CD for like the fiftith time.
• I'm trying to work on the answers to my questions for German Culture, but apparently I'm not doing so well because I keep getting distracted, just a little bit ADD right now.
• I'm really happy for Kj cause he now gets to go to Africa, but it's going to be sad for everybody.
• Thinking that I need to be less boy crazy right now. Lol
• Thinking that I'm pretty damn excited for turkey dinner tomorrowl, YUM, it's been almost an eniter year since I've had it.
• Is thinking that I would like to go watch a movie, but I have no clue what I want to watch,
• Thinking that I need to also be working on my German Language project due next Wednesday, frigg my life,
• Now I'm thinking that the tiredness is starting to hit me, lol, I'm feeling like I'm going to crash any minute now, lol, that was fast.
• Also thinking that I'm sucking at typing right now, I don't know how many times that I've hit the Backspace button, oops, just did it again, lol
• Thinking that I would like to have a good surprise next week, I like good surprises, :)
• I think that the weather needs to warm up here too. It's only October people!!!!

Right Now

• I'm hoping that I did really well on the two tests that I've had in the past couple of days, but I'm really scared that I didn't do too well on my Biology one
• I'm am totally loving my new phone. It's amazing. It's been two years since I've had a new one, and my other was defs a piece.
• I'm thinking that I would like to go see Fame with everybody, but cause of school, I have to be up early tommorow morning, so they better do something with me soon!!!!!!!
• I'm thinking that I need to start getting my butt to pyhsio, cause I really need to work my knee. It hasn't nessecarily been hurting lots, but I know that I need to get it back in shape
• I'm loving the amount of flash cards sitting on my desk right now from all my vocab words for German, lol, by the end of the course, I'm going to have like fify billion of them,
• I'm totally obsessed with One Tree Hill again, lol, on the days when I get off at 1, I go home and watch it, cause I'm a nerd like that.
• Is thinking "what is up with the friggen wind, seriously, seriously?" I almost died today because it was blowing so herd, and it's supposed to be the same way tommorow, so I'm defs not happy, and then we'ra supposed to get snow on FRIDAY!!! Seriously?
• Thinking that I want to go to sleep, but seeing as it's only 8:30, I'm thinking I'll wait at least another hour, in the meantime, I'll work on vocab, lol

Sooo,

• So I'm thinking right now that I really don't like being sick. Not going to lie, it really sucks, but at least it's got nothing to do with my lungs, thank God!!
• I'm also looking through these photoshoot pictures, and I'm thinking that I always need Kaleigh to do my make-up and Amy to always take my pictures, :)
• I'm also listening to Backstreet Boys, I know, I'm a complete nerd, but it's totally reminding of my childhood, listening to them when I was like 8, lol
• I need to really get to work on figuring out my German Language stuff. We've started sentences, and I realized today that I really need to get to work on my vocab, otherwise I'm completely lost. This also makes me feel like I'm back in like first grade, learning how to make sentences and stuff, and it's a very odd feeling.
• And now I'm really tired, it's been a really long day, and I'm going to bed!!!

University Tommorow!!!

So I'm sitting here thinking that I'm really excited for my first day of classes tommorow. It's so exciting being able to go to university. I'm thinking that it's going to be way more interesting than high school ever was, and I'm hoping that now I kinda have a fresh start after the horrible year that I has starting in January. I think the thing that I'm most excited about it the fact that I get to meet new people, and be who I want to be, and not be the stuck in the same place as I was in high school. I'm going to be able to talk to new people and gain so much life experience, it's going to be my new adventure. And I know that before I have said that I don't like to deal with change, but I'm thinking that this is going to be a good change, and I think I'm ready for it now. Now watch, I'll post tommorow that my first day of classes were absolutely horrible and that I never want to go back, lol, but I sincerly hope that it's not true, and that I love every bit of it. :)

So I'm loving the fact that today is one of the nicer days outside today, and I'm thinking that I really want to go grab a blanket and a book and go outside and read, and enjoy the sun while it's here. So far, things have been going pretty well. Physio is going pretty good, my knee isn't hurting aas much as it used to, and I love seeing the hot guys there, apparentley cute boys get injured too, lol. I'm also thinking that because I'm actually get sleep lately, that it is actually helping my mood and I can relax and take care of my body better, so it is definitly nice when I'm not stressing over everything in my life, lol. Anyways, just wanted to say that, Lol, pretty short, but I haven't been on in a while, and while I'm waiting for my video to load, I figured I might as well update, lol, :)

End of the Year,

It's soo weird now to think that I have officially had my last day of school. It seems so weird that I'm never going back there everyday for school in my life, it's so mind blowing right now. And I've had this sick feeling in my stomach all day, like my heart has jumped down there and it won't come back up. And I don't like it.

And thinking about all of my school experience, I think of how much has changed in 12 years. People I thought that I would never be friends with in a million years, I'm actually going to miss. And to think how my life was a couple of years ago, I can't help but think that I'm actually kind of glad that I had those experiences. It has made me such a stronger person, and I can recognize when a situation that I'm in isn't right, or the people that I decide to be friends with aren't really my friends. I've had many people come and go through my life, i don't even think that I could count them anymore. People who I thought that I would never lose touch with, who were my best friends at one point are out of the picture, and yet those few others who I've been able to make it through all the drama, and tears, and fights, and I don't even know what, are still my friends to this day, and I hope that that never ends, that we stay friends for many more years to come.

And then there is the situation with a person that I haven't talked to since I was in grade 6, who messages me, out of the blue, and starts kinda talking to me again. It's weird, because we were really close, and then it all kinda went to hell. It makes me think what could happen with all of those people that I lost along the way, and if I'll ever start talking to them again as well. It's just been a really weird couple of months, lol.

And as scared as I am at the prospect of going off to university next year, I'm still kinda excited about. I'm a person that doesn't adjust well with change, but I think after all that I done, especiall during this year, I think I will handle it better than I would have just last year.

This Week

So I'm still sick, with pnuemonia, and I'm tired and I would really like to get better anytime now. Lets see, this week has been kinda weird. I don't know why. I was sitting in social studies today, and I honestly couldn't remember what day it was, it kinda seems like it's gone by in a blur. And next week, I have two doctor's appointments that I have to go to. One for my lovely knee, and at least I can then ask my doctor what the hell is happening with it, cause I haven't been able to go to physio in like a month now, and the second appointment is on wednesday, for my lovely pnuemonia, cause it hasn't gotten any better in the two weeks since I saw my doctor, so now i have to go back so I can get a chest x-ray done, and they can figure out what is wrong with me, so much fun!!!, lol

But, anyway, grad was so much fun, we got a limo and everything, and rode around downtown screaming at people, and just having fun with all of my closest friends, which I loved so much. And I also got accepted to the Faculty of Humanities, so I've decided that I am actually going to go to university this year, something I wasn't going to do because of my knee injury. At least now I feel like I'm actually going to be doing something with my life this year, not just working, and it kinda feels like something is going right in my life for once this year, lol, and I hope it gets better from now on, that would be absolutely lovely.

OMG

I can't even believe right now how close it is to Grad, it's in like 6 days, and I don't even know what to do. It's starting to really sink in that grade 12 is almost over. Seriously, like 3 and a half weeks left, and it's all done. No more going to classes everyday, or hanging out with everybody on a regular basis. I'm a person that does not adjust well to change at all, and it's really, really freaking me out now. I don't even know what I'm going to be doing with my life now. I have no plans to go to University this year, and it kinda feels like I'm doing absolutely nothing with my life. I've always had things planned out for me, and I usually know what my future is kinda going to be like, but this year has just changed everything. It's turned my world upside down, my nice, safe, cozy world.

Being Sick Sucks

So i have definitly decided that being sick really sucks, especially when it's an infection of your respiratory tract and you can't breathe, and you can't take your inhaler for your asthma, because guess what? you get the rare side effects that come along with it now, such as rapid heart beat, nervousness, nausea, muscle aches, shakiness, etc. all of that good stuff.

So basically, I've been sitting at home doing absolutely nothing for the past four days now, and I think that I would really like to be better now, especially cause I've missed I don't even know what, although, I have been able to watch alot of t.v. and read some, but I get really short of breath just sitting sometimes, and I can feel my heart beating throughout my body, and I'm really done with being sick, I'm just done.

Oh, and this definitely isn't helping my knee any, cause I can't go to pyhsio either, so that's going amazingly well. I just can't help but think why this all had to happen in my grade 12 year, and had to happen all at once. But I guess that's the way things go, I just gotta suck it up and deal with it now.

Stupid Friggen week

So this week really really sucked. I've been sick and stressed to the max, and I got my chair kicked out from under me yesterday. Seriously, who kicks a chair out from somebody?? I was not pleased with that, but at least when I went to dance, it was "secret buddy day" and my secret buddy totallt got me a stuffed lion, so that made the day better. Now I just need a name for him, lol.

Anyways, I'm just realising now just how much longer we have until graduation, and I'm starting to get a little bit nervous now. Like we only have a couple of weeks left until the ceremony and banquet, and it seems like everything is happening soooo fast, I can't even believe it.

Hello

So it's been like fifty years since I've been on, lol, I haven't had much time lately, I've been pretty good except for being sick and knee problems like always, although it is better than it was a couple of weeks ago, lol

I'm like sitting in PDA and pretty much doing nothing, lol, and I'm kinda bored right now, but I'll live, maybe, lol.

Anyways, not much else to say, see you later!!

Sammy!

So I totally found my new teddy bear in the street today, and I felt really sad for it because it was all dirty and lonely looking and I just had to take him home, lol. So his name is now Sammy and he's all clean now, except for the fact that somebody decided that it would be funny to burn some of his hair, but I still love him anyways, :)

Good Friday, kind of? lol

So, cause you know me and my knee, I had to go to the hospital to make sure that nothing was wrong, and yes, I know I was worrying about nothing, and no, there is nothing wrong, so I basically spent 4 and a half friggen hours waiting for nothing, but whatever, at least I'm not worrying about it anymore. But now I have to wear my friggen brace again for the next couple of days to make sure that my knee won't give out on me, but whatever I guess.

And also today, I totally got new headphones for my iPod, cause you know, some chick decided that it would be amazing to rip off one of them off of my old set, so I'm happy now, I has brand new headphones, :)

Stupid Knee!!!!!

So, my friggen knee, big surprise there, lol. I'm so sick and tired of being injured, like seriously, I'd really like to chop my leg off right now.

I was pyshiotherapy yesterday, and I heard this huge crack in my knee while I was doing one of my excercises and I'm so not happy. It's so sore right now, and of course, being me, I'm freaking out like crazy right now cause I think that I've re-broken it

It just feels like it's never going to get better, ever, and I'm going to be a gimp for the rest of my life, and I'm never going to be able to dance ever again, and it's just so frustrating. I know it's only been 4 months since I've hurt it, but it seems to be taking a really long time to fix itself.

Anyways, so I'm sitting here, glad that it's the weekend, early (Go Easter weekend, lol) and I actually got to sleep in for once. I like being able to just relax and not have to worry about being anywhere or do antything. I just want to sit around and do a whole lot of nothing, lol.

UGH!

So this week seems like it is fifty years long already, and it's only tuesday, I think that I seriously need a week just so I can catch up on sleep, lol.

So, by the way, I really don't do this whole blog thing, but Amy J, I will try, lol, and you better be proud of me, :)

But anyways, I'm really tired right now, so i think that I'm going to go to bed and dream nice dreams.

My first post!!!

OMG!!!!! My very first post on my blog, lol, it's pretty amazing,