Lol, yes I know it's been a long time since I've posted anything, I have figured out that I'm really not good at keeping up with this, lol anyways,

So I would like to say to you, thank you. It feels nice to be able to talk to somebody and feel like I don't have to hide anything, and say what I'm really feeling, I've been sooo closed off for soo many years to people, that it's hard for me to say what I'm really thinking, and to have somebody actually listen to what I'm saying, as opposed to just agreeing with everything I say and passing it off as nothing. It's taken soo long for me to trust somebody and know they don't they don't think that I'm stupid for saying something, or saying it to get attention, but just to listen, that's all I've ever wanted.

Saying this, I think that I've defiantly learned alot of life lessons, and realizing that things happen for a reason. I think that whatever happened in the past has made me who I am today, and I think it's for the better. And even though I can't follow my dreams the way that I wish I could, I know that there's a plan for me, and I obviously wasn't on the right track to getting to where I need to be in life, that it wasn't the right thing for me, as much as I would like to think that it was. I also think that if something is meant to be, it will happen, even if it's not always there, and you might not see it now. There are issues, and I'm sure if you gave it a chance you would see that you don't need this, that you can find better in this world, or maybe now is not the right time and later on it'll be right, you just need to give it a chance.

I know that you'll be okay, I know that you'll do what's right and what you feel you need to do. I know there is a path for you to follow. I know there is good stuff in this world for you,

And I'm here, any time anybody needs anything, I'm here.