End of the Year,

It's soo weird now to think that I have officially had my last day of school. It seems so weird that I'm never going back there everyday for school in my life, it's so mind blowing right now. And I've had this sick feeling in my stomach all day, like my heart has jumped down there and it won't come back up. And I don't like it.

And thinking about all of my school experience, I think of how much has changed in 12 years. People I thought that I would never be friends with in a million years, I'm actually going to miss. And to think how my life was a couple of years ago, I can't help but think that I'm actually kind of glad that I had those experiences. It has made me such a stronger person, and I can recognize when a situation that I'm in isn't right, or the people that I decide to be friends with aren't really my friends. I've had many people come and go through my life, i don't even think that I could count them anymore. People who I thought that I would never lose touch with, who were my best friends at one point are out of the picture, and yet those few others who I've been able to make it through all the drama, and tears, and fights, and I don't even know what, are still my friends to this day, and I hope that that never ends, that we stay friends for many more years to come.

And then there is the situation with a person that I haven't talked to since I was in grade 6, who messages me, out of the blue, and starts kinda talking to me again. It's weird, because we were really close, and then it all kinda went to hell. It makes me think what could happen with all of those people that I lost along the way, and if I'll ever start talking to them again as well. It's just been a really weird couple of months, lol.

And as scared as I am at the prospect of going off to university next year, I'm still kinda excited about. I'm a person that doesn't adjust well with change, but I think after all that I done, especiall during this year, I think I will handle it better than I would have just last year.

This Week

So I'm still sick, with pnuemonia, and I'm tired and I would really like to get better anytime now. Lets see, this week has been kinda weird. I don't know why. I was sitting in social studies today, and I honestly couldn't remember what day it was, it kinda seems like it's gone by in a blur. And next week, I have two doctor's appointments that I have to go to. One for my lovely knee, and at least I can then ask my doctor what the hell is happening with it, cause I haven't been able to go to physio in like a month now, and the second appointment is on wednesday, for my lovely pnuemonia, cause it hasn't gotten any better in the two weeks since I saw my doctor, so now i have to go back so I can get a chest x-ray done, and they can figure out what is wrong with me, so much fun!!!, lol

But, anyway, grad was so much fun, we got a limo and everything, and rode around downtown screaming at people, and just having fun with all of my closest friends, which I loved so much. And I also got accepted to the Faculty of Humanities, so I've decided that I am actually going to go to university this year, something I wasn't going to do because of my knee injury. At least now I feel like I'm actually going to be doing something with my life this year, not just working, and it kinda feels like something is going right in my life for once this year, lol, and I hope it gets better from now on, that would be absolutely lovely.

OMG

I can't even believe right now how close it is to Grad, it's in like 6 days, and I don't even know what to do. It's starting to really sink in that grade 12 is almost over. Seriously, like 3 and a half weeks left, and it's all done. No more going to classes everyday, or hanging out with everybody on a regular basis. I'm a person that does not adjust well to change at all, and it's really, really freaking me out now. I don't even know what I'm going to be doing with my life now. I have no plans to go to University this year, and it kinda feels like I'm doing absolutely nothing with my life. I've always had things planned out for me, and I usually know what my future is kinda going to be like, but this year has just changed everything. It's turned my world upside down, my nice, safe, cozy world.

Being Sick Sucks

So i have definitly decided that being sick really sucks, especially when it's an infection of your respiratory tract and you can't breathe, and you can't take your inhaler for your asthma, because guess what? you get the rare side effects that come along with it now, such as rapid heart beat, nervousness, nausea, muscle aches, shakiness, etc. all of that good stuff.

So basically, I've been sitting at home doing absolutely nothing for the past four days now, and I think that I would really like to be better now, especially cause I've missed I don't even know what, although, I have been able to watch alot of t.v. and read some, but I get really short of breath just sitting sometimes, and I can feel my heart beating throughout my body, and I'm really done with being sick, I'm just done.

Oh, and this definitely isn't helping my knee any, cause I can't go to pyhsio either, so that's going amazingly well. I just can't help but think why this all had to happen in my grade 12 year, and had to happen all at once. But I guess that's the way things go, I just gotta suck it up and deal with it now.

Stupid Friggen week

So this week really really sucked. I've been sick and stressed to the max, and I got my chair kicked out from under me yesterday. Seriously, who kicks a chair out from somebody?? I was not pleased with that, but at least when I went to dance, it was "secret buddy day" and my secret buddy totallt got me a stuffed lion, so that made the day better. Now I just need a name for him, lol.

Anyways, I'm just realising now just how much longer we have until graduation, and I'm starting to get a little bit nervous now. Like we only have a couple of weeks left until the ceremony and banquet, and it seems like everything is happening soooo fast, I can't even believe it.

Hello

So it's been like fifty years since I've been on, lol, I haven't had much time lately, I've been pretty good except for being sick and knee problems like always, although it is better than it was a couple of weeks ago, lol

I'm like sitting in PDA and pretty much doing nothing, lol, and I'm kinda bored right now, but I'll live, maybe, lol.

Anyways, not much else to say, see you later!!

Sammy!

So I totally found my new teddy bear in the street today, and I felt really sad for it because it was all dirty and lonely looking and I just had to take him home, lol. So his name is now Sammy and he's all clean now, except for the fact that somebody decided that it would be funny to burn some of his hair, but I still love him anyways, :)